Over the last two weeks I have felt completely useless. I experienced a wicked depression and did not bother to reach out to others and ask for help. I also spent very little time in the Bible and in prayer. Because my chronic low blood pressure caused me to feel dizzy and lethargic, it was difficult to sit up and use my laptop. The longer time I spent away from things that would normally nourish my faith, such as God’s word, prayer, and fellowship with others, the more I began to question if I could be a tool for God with the physical and mental challenges I face. But we all know you do not have to have a disability or mental health diagnosis to feel broken down and useless at times.
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Living Unafraid
Like some of you, I have experienced anxiety and feelings of isolation for the last several months. The pandemic, the political unrest, and other issues facing our world have caused an uneasiness and angst that I wasn’t expecting. It’s been especially bad since I’ve been locked in my long-term care facility. Not only can I not have visitors in, I cannot leave the premises or even leave my room. I know that the rest of the world shares this discomfort with me and that I am not alone.
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When my neck was broken in 2013 there was so much confusion in my mind. Difficult things happened in my life before then and I had held onto my faith, but this was so catastrophic that I couldn’t think clearly. I wondered if God was punishing me for all I had done wrong. Although I was sober when my injury occurred, I had been an active alcoholic for many years before then and the behaviors that accompanied my drinking were condemned sins all throughout the Bible.
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Diary of a Quadriplegic 