I want prosperity. Like most of you, I didn’t win the lottery so I’m not talking about that type of prosperity. I’m talking about the inner prosperity that only comes from God. The type that can be realized through perseverance. Through prayer. Through steadfastness of faith. Through holding on when you feel like the odds are stacked against you.
I get so caught up in the challenges of my life that I can’t see God. I want instant answers. I get mad. I get blinded by lies about who I am. What I’m worth. How God feels about me. But even during those bouts of depression and confusion, I do a few things right. I tell trusted friends what I’m feeling (very important). I continue to pray. I continue to search the Scriptures for answers. I hold on. And I continue to stand.
Ephesians 6: 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
God has a plan. And according to Romans 8:28, it’s a good one. Someone told me many years ago that when I am going through the hardest of times, I’m getting ready to turn a corner of spiritual growth. I’ve never forgotten that. Sometimes God gives us instantaneous answers to our prayers. I love it when that happens. And sometimes we need to persevere and pray through the trials and believe that that God has a plan for us. A hope and a future for us.
Jeremiah 29: 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I know for me, it’s taken this injury to help me see how as an able-bodied person I was enslaved to quick fixes. I wanted to hurry up and get physically fit. I wanted to hurry up and get more material things. I wanted to hurry up and get a boyfriend. Well, there’s not much quick about my life now. I can’t move! I’m not saying that to gain pity, I’m simply stating that I’ve learned a great lesson in patience through all of this.
Even during the days when I was toting my Bible to church every Sunday and proclaiming my righteousness, I still couldn’t see the grace of God. I still didn’t understand that he wanted more for me than a bunch of quick victories. Sometimes it’s about the fight.
James 1: 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything
As difficult as my life circumstances can be, I believe God is transforming me into a person who is learning to be fulfilled. At peace. Thankful. If you read my blog at all you know that I’m not there yet! I have as many emotional peaks and valleys as there are seconds in a day. And yet I am learning to fight the good fight. To persevere. To hold onto the truth about God. And to understand that prosperity will come.