So he said to me, “This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel: ‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the Lord Almighty (Zec 4:6).
I have heard this verse in song and seen it on T-shirts and it has always resulted in a “feel good” moment for me. This morning I had the opportunity to study it more in depth and it lit fire inside of me knowing I possess God’s power and the Holy Spirit. What an emboldened feeling!
Read the rest of this entryOver the last two weeks I have felt completely useless. I experienced a wicked depression and did not bother to reach out to others and ask for help. I also spent very little time in the Bible and in prayer. Because my chronic low blood pressure caused me to feel dizzy and lethargic, it was difficult to sit up and use my laptop. The longer time I spent away from things that would normally nourish my faith, such as God’s word, prayer, and fellowship with others, the more I began to question if I could be a tool for God with the physical and mental challenges I face. But we all know you do not have to have a disability or mental health diagnosis to feel broken down and useless at times.
Read the rest of this entryFor the past couple of months, I have had pressure sores on my backside and it has required me to stay in bed. When I cannot roll around in my wheelchair and get outside, I start to feel so isolated and depressed. Of course I thought I was “good” with everything, but the anger over my situation began to boil over during the last week or so. I literally screamed at God last night about my hardships; but as usual, my morning study radically changed my outlook and bolstered my faith.
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Diary of a Quadriplegic 