The worst time of the day for me is the morning. It seems like I wake up and everything starts to itch. My nose itches. My ear itches. My eye itches. And I can’t scratch anything! It’s always the little things that give me great pain and make me feel crazy. Having to ask someone for a drink of water. Having to ask someone to pull up a cover when I’m cold. Having to ask someone to wipe my nose. I find myself thinking that I just can’t do this! I just can’t do this paralyzed thing! Without working limbs, I’m incomplete!
Ephesians 3:18 – 19
I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.
This Scripture teaches me that when I feel crazy and unable to cope, God will empower me. And his resources to do so are unlimited! Even when I can’t see any good in any situation, I can trust God. And He loves me! He loves me so much that it’s difficult for my mind to grasp. His love is not shallow. The roots are deep, deep, deep.
And it’s clear that even though I don’t have a hand to scratch an itch, it’s God’s love alone that makes me complete, not my limbs.
Diary of a Quadriplegic 